The Prayer ( A thought from a sinner)

When will it stop, when will it end,
The hurt attached when you commit a sin
A sin against nature, a sin against you
One that leaves you broken, one that leaves you blue.
If sin is inevitable, then why try to fight it
If in the end all we will do is commit and then deny it
If we are made in his image then this should not be a problem
Instead I think we resemble the cruel hearts that crucified him
Im trying my best to do what is right
And in the end it seems Im losing the fight
So I look to your word to give me power
For it is that word that comforts in the darkest hour
You said you wouldn’t put more on me than I could bear
But it seems that load I have is to great to share
And you shouldn’t have to fix anymore of my mistakes
But you promised me salvation through your mercy and your grace
So Im running back to you Lord, though I never really left
I was just blinded by the thing I thought I couldn’t neglect.
I realize now that you are my constant help
And through your guidance I can run on and tell
Of the blessings, and the gifts you have placed in me
And give that testimony that might set that dying soul free
Im tired of running and Im ready to do what you say
Just allow me to receive and walk the right way.
Allow me to lift up those who are close around me
Allow me to be that star that guides those lost at sea
Allow me to touch lives that feel they can no longer go on
And give me the strength to minister and tell them to run on
And when it seems my fight is close to an end
Allow me to realize there is a dawn on the horizon
In your name is victory and I know I will win
I thank you for hearing me Lord and I say Amen.

Seasons Change

In my time I've seen somethings.People come and people go.I've seen the colors autumn brings, and how winter rain turns into snow.But this know for sure, though seasons change, I must endure.For you promised you'd be there when seasons change.The fire of my soul.Though this house with time grows old, will remain as long as I can feel you abiding in me.For you promised you'd be there.It's g0od t0 kn0w that you still care.For you promised you'll be there when seasons change.The fire of my soul. though this house with time grows old.Will remain as long as I can feel you abiding in me.For you promised you'd be there.It's good to know that you still care.For you promised you'd be there when seasons change...For you promised you'd be there when seasons change.For you promised you'll be there when seasons change.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F5aaAKoLATgI remember the first time I saw the movie "The Gospel" and heard TaMyra Gray sing this song. Its amazing how its true meaning would finally hit me 4 years later. Dont get me wrong, Ive always had an understanding of seasonal changes. Not in the physical sense but in the spiritual sense. Well really, even if you look at it in the physical it all adds up to the same thing. I have come to the realization a long time ago that a lot of people have to come in your life for a reason and then they HAVE to leave in order for other phases of your life to work. Now even though I realized it, I didnt accept it until NOW.It took for me to have to get fed up with all the disappointments and the frustrations and the heartache to realize that people had to go. Believe me, its a hard thing to do but I was tired. In every sense of the word. I was tired. I had lost feelings for things I used to love. My passion and drive to do other things had disappeared. The scariest thing is I was able to cover it all up and act as if everything was ok. On the outside I was fine but on the inside, I just wasnt right. It got so bad that it began to infiltrate my work. SO I came to a crossroads. Do I continue to surround myself with people who claim to love me but only bring me down or do I suck it up and start over, severing ties to a life it took 10 years to build. Well I was tired so what did I have to lose. On top of that I, like many of us ,forget about the Big Man upstairs who always knows what he is doing.So after months and months of betrayal to myself, I let go. It had to be done. As a result, my life has been so much better, my mind has been so much clearer, and more importantly, my ministry and what God has given me to do has been so much more effective. I cannot explain how much Joy I have. Ive been allowed to do so much in 22 years of life.So let me bring it back to the physical. I look at a tree. The leaves, the branches, and the Trunk. As seasons change each part of the tree is affected differently. Lets look at the leaves. In the Spring they bloom, in the summer they are still there but they become weak, in the fall they begin to fall away and die off and in the winter they are gone. Let's look at the branches. Branches for the most part are always around but they are often swayed by the environment and in many times, like in hurricane season, are blown away all together. BUT NOW, lets look at the trunk. No matter the weather (and barring tree cutters) the trunk is always there and endures the season because it is grounded and its roots are firmly planted in the ground.When I look at these three parts, I had to ask myself how many friends do I have that are leaves, branches, and trunks. The leaves outweighed the trunks. Well I made the rubicon decision that I was no longer going to put myself in jeopardy. From now on I am only keeping trunks around.Again. Its nothing personal. THose who know there place in my life know if this applies to you or not but if you have to question whether or not I am talking about you, I probably am. Much Love to whoever reads this. I love you regardless but hey, Im done with leaves.......A Prototype Production.................

No Quit in Prosperity

I was at a meeting today and I was chillin when someone in the room asked me to say a few words of encouragement. Not knowing what to say, I looked around the room trying to find some inspiration and I looked at the chalkboard. Scribbled on the side were these words: "Success does not come overnight, but comes through overcoming constant trials......." After reading this, it was layed on my heart to share the following. I think about the story of Joseph in the Bible. I dont want to tell you the story because I dont want to rob you of the breakthrough this story provides (in other words read it. Its in Genesis.lol). In short, Joseph was a man who was destined to do great things and be a great man in God. THough this was his destiny he was faced with many trials, tests, and much adversity. His blood brothers, full of jealousy, turned thier backs on him and left him to die. He was betrayed by others and eventually ended up in Prison. Through all of this he never let go of his faith and continued to perservere and pray. In the end he became a King and when presented with the opportunity to get retribution on those who betrayed him, he blessed them instead of shunning them. I say all of this to make this point. How you handle your adversity lets God know how you are going to handle your blessing. Joseph could have given up but he didnt. He also could have been spiteful to those who betrayed him but he didnt. He just continued to live the only way he knew how. I dont want to make this a drawn out note but I encourage you to PERSERVERE!!!!!! There is NO QUIT IN PROSPERITY........ How can you win if you quit. Remember this and stay encouraged.