Story of Love (Dedication to my Rib)

See you've been here before and that’s where you shall stay, but for others I want them to know how it got that way.....that is, how you managed to find the directions to my heart. Well there is one simple way to do that, let me begin from the start.

I had an incomprehensible pain and it felt so bad, and the only way to fix it was to get rid of all I had. The emotions, the feelings, the pain, the memories although, it was all supposed to make me stronger, it all had to go.

So I packed it up and threw it far away, never for one moment thinking it would journey back this way. But somewhere along its journey it found someone named you, and from that moment both our lives would start anew.

See, you befriended that lost heart not knowing the story it told, but simply realizing it wasn’t broken or damaged- just cold.

So u listened to it and let it guide u, it was your GPS. All you had to do was care and it did all the rest.

It took u down the street of anguish and it made a left on the avenue of Dispair. You thought to yourself "stuff like this just isn't fair."

As it slowed on the BLVD of Broken Dreams, you began to CHOKE, but it said don’t shed one tear we are almost at the bridge of hope....

“See where we are now is where I used to reside, but something tells me the life my owner once knew has died. I’m being compelled to cross that bridge because that’s where he is, for if the pain I possess isn’t in him, then he has to be experiencing happiness.”

So you continued to tarry and search and did all you could, to continue to search for me as the heart said you should.

I still don’t understand how this all happened but with all of this occurring it must have been destined.

SO as you walked over the bridge there I stood, waiting for someone to do something only you could.

See I couldn’t yet go to the land of hope, because all my dreams were gone in a puff of smoke.

But what I needed was another dream and that was you, and you would be the one to revive and make my heart new.

As my heart led you closer to where I was, I started to feel again but it was still a feeling of fuzz.

But the closer you got the warmer I felt, and I realized that you were the person I was supposed to tell,

You were who I was supposed to be with, and you would truly show me happiness.

As you got closer you extended my heart back to me, I could not accept it because it now belonged to thee.

……what happens when you finally reach the end of me, well you simply pray and wait for the person that makes you complete.


Written by Brian Ajayi ©2008

I didn't know NANCY'S PARTNER was BLACK

About 60 years ago, the thought of an interracial couple was laughed at. With racial tensions on the rise and the hatred of another race becoming common, those who found love in the arms of someone different from them had to be hidden. Love had to be masked behind a veil of secrecy only to be trusted to the hearts of those involved. Centuries before this time period, homosexuality was demoralized and those who chose this lifestyle were condemned and outcast in society.
So here I stand, on a foggy morning in Ocean City, Maryland. With camera in hand, I’m taking picture after picture of the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life. I am taking pictures of TRUE LOVE.
I’m sure you are asking yourself what TRUE LOVE looks like. Well……As I lower my camera, my eyes are looking at a white woman with masculine tendencies but a heart of GOLD, a black woman whose aura illuminates everything around her. These TWO WOMEN embracing in love, each softly kissing the other in front of the Atlantic Ocean crashing into the sandy beaches of the East getting ready to exchange vows so they could spend the rest of their lives together.
It took years for interracial dating to be accepted and even still, it has its critics. In recent years, the debate over same sex marriage has torn this nation apart. Religion preaches that man should marry woman only. As ONE NATION UNDER GOD, this must be the part of religion focuses on. Well religion also demands that we respect one another, love one another, and more importantly we don’t judge.
Looking at this couple I realize more and more that love cannot be justified by race and it cannot be ratified on the basis of sex. Love can only be challenged by the rules of the heart. The heart decides who the heart loves and the heart ONLY.
The beauty in all of this is that as soon as this couple left the beach, no matter what the world said about them, true love would reign supreme and nothing would change about them but their marital status.
I know that when I look at TRUE LOVE, I don’t see colors and I don’t see gender. I look at the imprint that the Love I saw left on my life and boy did they give me a greater appreciation for love.
Congratulations Nancy and Tracy

Prototypical Brutha

May 25th

SO everyday when I sat down at my desk I had the same routine. I would run my reports, check in with some staff, eat breakfast and put either a funny or inspirational thought on my facebook status. This day would be no different. I followed the same schedule but the words I put up would define the next several hours, even days. SO here is the time line:



8:09 am - I get on facebook mobile and write

" Good Morning. I find it amazing how even when you feel at your lowest God finds a way to remind his children how high they are esteemed. MAN I LOVE YOU GOD!!!!!!"

8:25 am - I get an email from my boss saying he wanted to meet with me at 9:30

9:30 am - I walked into my bosses office and was informed I was being laid off.


Initially I was upset. I felt used and didnt understand why the person who sacrificed so much for the company was the first option to go. What made me even more upset is the fact that I stayed at work during the blizzards for the good of the company while my granddad passed away alone. At this point I felt at my LOWEST. After a moment of venting within myself, I quietly packed my things and made my way to my car.

As I was driving I checked my phone and noticed I had notifications from facebook and as I checked them I realized they were all pertaining to my status. So I re-read what I wrote.

" Good Morning. I find it amazing how even when you feel at your LOWEST God finds a way to remind his children how HIGH they are esteemed. MAN I LOVE YOU GOD!!!!!!"

So I meditated on that and slowly began to feel better about what had just happened. What transpired next was amazing.

I began to receive phone calls from many people around the hospital asking if I was ok. They said how they didnt understand why such a decision was made but wished me the best. Others called offering to protest on my behalf. Some of my co-workers even cried. Aout 30 minutes later I received a phone call from Human Resources offering me THREE different positions that had more responsibilities and better benefits. The Senior Vice President personally offered me one of the positions and personally told me that he recognized my skills and he couldnt afford to lose me to another company. I sat in amazement at the fact that this was happening. Just an hour ago I was let go and now I have not one but three offers on the table and didnt have to put one application in. I felt really LOW but God reminded me HOW HIGH HE ESTEEMS HIS CHILDREN.My recommendation to those who ever go through or have gone through a period of unemployment, or any trial in general, to remember God had your best interest at heart.

BE BLESSED

-Prototypical Brutha

The Prayer ( A thought from a sinner)

When will it stop, when will it end,
The hurt attached when you commit a sin
A sin against nature, a sin against you
One that leaves you broken, one that leaves you blue.
If sin is inevitable, then why try to fight it
If in the end all we will do is commit and then deny it
If we are made in his image then this should not be a problem
Instead I think we resemble the cruel hearts that crucified him
Im trying my best to do what is right
And in the end it seems Im losing the fight
So I look to your word to give me power
For it is that word that comforts in the darkest hour
You said you wouldn’t put more on me than I could bear
But it seems that load I have is to great to share
And you shouldn’t have to fix anymore of my mistakes
But you promised me salvation through your mercy and your grace
So Im running back to you Lord, though I never really left
I was just blinded by the thing I thought I couldn’t neglect.
I realize now that you are my constant help
And through your guidance I can run on and tell
Of the blessings, and the gifts you have placed in me
And give that testimony that might set that dying soul free
Im tired of running and Im ready to do what you say
Just allow me to receive and walk the right way.
Allow me to lift up those who are close around me
Allow me to be that star that guides those lost at sea
Allow me to touch lives that feel they can no longer go on
And give me the strength to minister and tell them to run on
And when it seems my fight is close to an end
Allow me to realize there is a dawn on the horizon
In your name is victory and I know I will win
I thank you for hearing me Lord and I say Amen.

Seasons Change

In my time I've seen somethings.People come and people go.I've seen the colors autumn brings, and how winter rain turns into snow.But this know for sure, though seasons change, I must endure.For you promised you'd be there when seasons change.The fire of my soul.Though this house with time grows old, will remain as long as I can feel you abiding in me.For you promised you'd be there.It's g0od t0 kn0w that you still care.For you promised you'll be there when seasons change.The fire of my soul. though this house with time grows old.Will remain as long as I can feel you abiding in me.For you promised you'd be there.It's good to know that you still care.For you promised you'd be there when seasons change...For you promised you'd be there when seasons change.For you promised you'll be there when seasons change.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F5aaAKoLATgI remember the first time I saw the movie "The Gospel" and heard TaMyra Gray sing this song. Its amazing how its true meaning would finally hit me 4 years later. Dont get me wrong, Ive always had an understanding of seasonal changes. Not in the physical sense but in the spiritual sense. Well really, even if you look at it in the physical it all adds up to the same thing. I have come to the realization a long time ago that a lot of people have to come in your life for a reason and then they HAVE to leave in order for other phases of your life to work. Now even though I realized it, I didnt accept it until NOW.It took for me to have to get fed up with all the disappointments and the frustrations and the heartache to realize that people had to go. Believe me, its a hard thing to do but I was tired. In every sense of the word. I was tired. I had lost feelings for things I used to love. My passion and drive to do other things had disappeared. The scariest thing is I was able to cover it all up and act as if everything was ok. On the outside I was fine but on the inside, I just wasnt right. It got so bad that it began to infiltrate my work. SO I came to a crossroads. Do I continue to surround myself with people who claim to love me but only bring me down or do I suck it up and start over, severing ties to a life it took 10 years to build. Well I was tired so what did I have to lose. On top of that I, like many of us ,forget about the Big Man upstairs who always knows what he is doing.So after months and months of betrayal to myself, I let go. It had to be done. As a result, my life has been so much better, my mind has been so much clearer, and more importantly, my ministry and what God has given me to do has been so much more effective. I cannot explain how much Joy I have. Ive been allowed to do so much in 22 years of life.So let me bring it back to the physical. I look at a tree. The leaves, the branches, and the Trunk. As seasons change each part of the tree is affected differently. Lets look at the leaves. In the Spring they bloom, in the summer they are still there but they become weak, in the fall they begin to fall away and die off and in the winter they are gone. Let's look at the branches. Branches for the most part are always around but they are often swayed by the environment and in many times, like in hurricane season, are blown away all together. BUT NOW, lets look at the trunk. No matter the weather (and barring tree cutters) the trunk is always there and endures the season because it is grounded and its roots are firmly planted in the ground.When I look at these three parts, I had to ask myself how many friends do I have that are leaves, branches, and trunks. The leaves outweighed the trunks. Well I made the rubicon decision that I was no longer going to put myself in jeopardy. From now on I am only keeping trunks around.Again. Its nothing personal. THose who know there place in my life know if this applies to you or not but if you have to question whether or not I am talking about you, I probably am. Much Love to whoever reads this. I love you regardless but hey, Im done with leaves.......A Prototype Production.................

No Quit in Prosperity

I was at a meeting today and I was chillin when someone in the room asked me to say a few words of encouragement. Not knowing what to say, I looked around the room trying to find some inspiration and I looked at the chalkboard. Scribbled on the side were these words: "Success does not come overnight, but comes through overcoming constant trials......." After reading this, it was layed on my heart to share the following. I think about the story of Joseph in the Bible. I dont want to tell you the story because I dont want to rob you of the breakthrough this story provides (in other words read it. Its in Genesis.lol). In short, Joseph was a man who was destined to do great things and be a great man in God. THough this was his destiny he was faced with many trials, tests, and much adversity. His blood brothers, full of jealousy, turned thier backs on him and left him to die. He was betrayed by others and eventually ended up in Prison. Through all of this he never let go of his faith and continued to perservere and pray. In the end he became a King and when presented with the opportunity to get retribution on those who betrayed him, he blessed them instead of shunning them. I say all of this to make this point. How you handle your adversity lets God know how you are going to handle your blessing. Joseph could have given up but he didnt. He also could have been spiteful to those who betrayed him but he didnt. He just continued to live the only way he knew how. I dont want to make this a drawn out note but I encourage you to PERSERVERE!!!!!! There is NO QUIT IN PROSPERITY........ How can you win if you quit. Remember this and stay encouraged.